Syaz or wanie that is what u can called me..betrayed her n she will hate u ever..she loves pinkies,pooh bear,soya bean n pokka2..She adores her familie,hero baby n her besties..She live her life to the fullest..doesn't mean u read my blogg u now me okie..=).
just now in the morning.... tergerak hati nak kol boifee... i kol tap tak angkat dua kali.... so i msg..."bi lau da bgn kol me...i nak bobal ngan u...=)" then around 2.45 he msg me... "nak ape?" then i kol him... then he sounded like want to nak tak nak lyn... the i keep sabr...talk wif him wif full of happiness... n ask him wat's wrong.... he then shouted n give the attitude n say noting was wrong... haiz...then i say after buke can he call mee...and promised me that he will kol... he say ya sure he promises... and i even say i want him to be on good term as not to shout at me... he say ya i will n promise me... then buke time... around 7.50 he miss kol me and i kol him... i thoought he will be sounded okay but to my shocked he still like before buke... haiz... i was soo depressed n could not tahan n i cry... he heard i cry n u noe what...to my shocked he say... "nagis??nak nagis??nagis ar....i tak kesah la pe u nak ckp...nak piki ke... ape ke... then it just stop e from crying n kept thinking.... what i'm goin to do next...then i just sabar n talk to him nicely.... but he kept the same... he say i was the one created this problem... when i ask him what he say"pandai2 la pikir.." then i say is it bout the wrong msg...?? he say no.... then he even say "eee...!!!!susa btol la de matair...penat la...da btol2 nyer penat la... haiz...de matair nik byk buat dosa la..."" it just shocked me when he say all those suff.... i wanna cry but i just hold back....haiz... he just think about himself n not about me... he say he treated his family like that... but when his sister talk to him...he even laugh wif the sister ntalk nicely... but when talk to me it change... haiz... i reallly dunnoe what more to do... my fwen all say... "lau ko le lag sabar n sanguup menagis utk dier lag...ko stay.. tap lau ko tak sngup nak nagis utk dier lag break suda...lagip pon dier tak pena nak appreciated ko...pe ko uat semau dier amik gitu2 jek..." i just dunnoe... i just have to really tink wat i want... i'm just to depressed this times... haiz.. just wanna shout it all out n cry as many as i want..=( *sobs*
